How did I get here?

For starters, I'm not really expecting anyone to actually read this. I'm thinking that this more of a therapeutic tool to help me through what I really hope isn't a midlife crisis at 32 years old!! Good lord. I have a lot of things in my head, and if I don't get them out, I think I'm going to go crazy. Seriously, the more I watch Obsessed on A&E the more I think I'm nuts.

So I guess this starts with a work assignment and continues with the movie "Julie and Julia". Pretty random, huh? The work assignment, write a letter from yourself 15 years from now on where you'll be from a career/work/family/community perspective. Sounded easy... not so much. I mean, easy in that sure, anyone can write up where they think they will be in 15 years. My problem was all of the thinking I was doing leading up to the writing. I'm like a choose your own adventure book (which I loved as a child) with missing pages. Not really sure where to go. The one thing that stood out was that no matter what path (adventure) I choose, I need to start making ME a priority. That was a common theme.

Flash forward a week, watching "Julie and Julia" by myself while my husband is away on business. A find myself watching this movie and two things pop out at me.

1. Julie's all about creating a deadline for her project because she never finished anything. [This is me... we'll get into detail about that later].
2. Julie's life is not fulfilled. She's married, has a job (although not a very successful one) and is in search for something more. [I actually have a pretty good job but I'm lacking something... it's in one of those missing pages].

So here I am, stealing the idea right out of the movie, blogging for the first time ever. Again, I really don't think anyone is actually going to read this, but what the hell. So my goal and blog theme, I guess, is focusing on how to make me a priority, while trying to actually finish something I've started on my way to finding that "something more" I'm looking for. How in the world am I going to do that?